Thursday, May 13, 2010
aside from that Mrs Lincoln, how was the opera?
the only thing I wanted was for you to love me.
the only thing I really wanted was for you not to die.
I don’t really know how I feel about you
now I won’t ever have to know.
I don’t mind that you hit me a couple of times and
I grew out of the mental abuse that comes of neglect
but I never understood why you were so selfish.
neither did she
and its hard to know who was in the wrong. All I see is my mother’s wasted life
look what sticks in your guts when you're forced to look back
look what happens when you never take risks
look what happens when you’re an arsehole who’s tight with their money
who’s to say if you tasted blood when I asked my brother to punch you?
you were only asking for it
I remember you hitting the floor
I wanted to see teeth on the ground
You made my guts ache with your pain
that special kind,
that only a fist to the eye can deliver
you don’t even have to do it any more for me to feel it
Is it dark in there with the warmth of the light turned off?
I never played sport because of you
I couldn't let girls hug me
it would have hurt too much
if I winced
they’d have looked for the bruises
you won’t be thinking of me
it’s a cold, heavy trust that I hold in the pit of me
you are gone you are gone
but I wanted you to love me
and it’s a terrible thing to wish for a death,